Testimonies

They told mife wife that she had sergical cancer sell in her body, and she could not have any kids. God is so good, she is with child as we speak,and she doest have any cancer. Thank you God in Jesus name.

This is the first time I’ve seen this page and as I was praying earlier in the spirit, I somehow came across this page when I typed in resting in the spirit.
Just felt the urge to share and to obey with what the spirit wants me to do and share a little bit about my testimony. This is kind of long, so I apologize for leaving this long post.

I’ve been a christian my entire life. I went to Sunday school and did all the religious things as one would do in a christian household. But I never had a relationship with God. My eldest brother of five siblings is the head pastor of my church. God called him to serve, and that in itself is a miracle. He was that guy that no one thought there would be hope for. He filled his life with girls, drugs, alcohol and to see him now happily married with his wife and his two kids, is an amazing sight to see. My brother is an amazing speaker/singer and anyone could see that this was what he was born to do, the assignment that God had for him.

I grew up with a major self image and self worth issues. I never thought that I could be enough for anyone, and I didn’t believe that someone would ever love someone like me. But I was reborn again when I was entering high school, through my brother who just became a pastor at that time. I also knew the calling that God had for me. Many pastors have approached me as a child and told me that God gave me a caring heart, and wants to use me to speak. As I got older, I could see the fruits in that and I was always passionate whenever I spoke of the things of God. People would always tell me that there is something special every time I speak and there is an anointing whenever I share the things of God, but I refused to receive that calling in my life. I just didn’t want to do it because I thought I would live a life of poverty. Furthermore, singing has always been a passion of mine so I led praise/worship and one of the cell groups that we had in our church. Slowly and surely, I lost the fire because I felt alone in terms of doing these things. I was restless and thought that I was the only one speaking and I believed that everyone relied on me and looked to me in every situation. I did not depend on God, but depended on my own strength to lead in these things. As a result, I was burnt out and I refused to do ministry again. Of course, this was not the sole reason why I went away from church for a while. Through heartbreaks and relationships, I went through many trials and tasks in which I did not respond in the way that I should have responded. In short, I left church for a while and would come back on and off again, but never to serve God in the way that I know he wants from me.

Through my time of hiding in the cave just like Elijah, I had to learn a series of things. I tried to fill my life with different girls, hobbies, alcohol, things of this world to fulfill this never ending emptiness inside of me. Once I realized that girls will never satisfy me fully and after my last relationship, I decided to pursue what the world defines as success. I moved up in Corporate America and I was making a good amount of money, with the intent of moving up and making even more money. I had a nice car and could afford the things that I wanted in life. I wanted to prove to the world that I could make it. I wanted to build my kingdom. However, I came to the point where I absolutely hated my job. I came in to work every single day, just thinking of ways where I could run across traffic in hopes of getting hit by something. During that time, I already knew God was calling me and told me that enough was enough. So I eventually quit my job, but still had no intentions of serving God. I had no plans, but was scared of the outcome since I held on to that job because of the bills and expenses that I had. Regardless of my fears and worries of my financial situation, I quit because I could not take it anymore.

A week after I quit my job, I remember laying in my bed and I felt such an overwhelming fear. In that time I thought of how useless and empty my life was. The world teaches you to grow up, get a good education, get a good job, get married and then have kids. So I thought to myself… Is that really all there is to life? I found it absolutely pointless and purposeless. If our purpose is only to do those things, then what’s the real point of living? That’s when God revealed to me of how much I needed him. I was overcome with fear and anxiety. We hear this all the time in church, that we need God. But I didn’t really experience this until the spirit revealed it to me. I realized in that moment of how much I needed him. Not only for the daily necessities and his provision, but I needed him because he was the only person in my life that is never changing and will love me unconditionally.

In Romans 5:6 it says, “When we were utterly helpless, Christ came at just the right time to die for us sinners.” This is one of my favorite verses, because it’s saying how GOD IS NEVER TOO LATE. Even when we’re at our worst and when we were utterly helpless, God came at just the right time. In that moment God reminded of my purpose in life. God spoke to me and said, “I love you just the way you are, and I have called you to speak. This is your assignment and the reason that you were born.” We all have an assignment and a purpose that God has for us. In Jeremiah 1 it says, “I knew you even before you were in your mothers womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” This shows that before we were born, God already had a purpose and assignment for us. He created us with a purpose already in mind. God is so gracious that he has a plan for you, even when you feel like you’re nothing. So I agreed and said okay God. I’ve tried doing it my way, so let’s try it your way! (Isn’t it funny how we treat God as a last resort and never a first option? This just shows you how patient and loving God is. If I was God, everyone would all be dead right now LOL)

God revealed so much to me that I had chains with my identity. I was never free of this. A lot of times, we are often defined based on our occupation and our status of relationships with other people in our lives. But once you take all that away, who are you? My identity was in my occupation for sure. Once that was taken away, a big part of me was hurting. My identity was also in my status relationships with the people around me. Everyone knew me as Pastor Mike’s brother and from that they had a perception of me and expected big things of me. That was one of the reasons why I didn’t want to accept the calling God had for me, because they would always compare me to my brother. But why wouldn’t I want that? My brother is amazing. I realized it was because I never felt good enough for anything or anyone. So I didn’t want anyone to compare me to my brother because I thought he was better than me in every single way and that made me feel insignificant. Growing up my parents always compared me to other kids, and little did I know that it stayed with me. I cared too much what people thought about me, that’s why I always felt the need to impress people. This identity and lie was never dealt with. I had to forgive my parents, myself and had to start declaring the truth in my life. The enemy fed that lie that I was never good enough, and I believed it. This carried on to my relationships as well. I never believed I was good enough, so when whoever I was dating at the time, did not respond in the way that I thought was loving or expected. I felt disappointed in them and we would end up fighting. I always believed in that lie. This was one of the reasons why my relationships never lasted.

So I start declaring every single day now that I am loved, valued not based on my occupation, not based on what people may or may not think about me, but loved because God says I am loved and valued. I am loved and valued because that is God’s truth about me. I am a son of the living God and he gave me a purpose to speak his word. I feel freedom every single day when I start renouncing the lies of the enemy. Revelation is new every single day now once I dealt with this identity problem. I’m able to seek God wholeheartedly, he restored my relationship with my parents which I thought would never change. I start journaling, and praying for the people that God placed in my heart. I meet up with people every single day in hopes of blessing them, encouraging them, and building God’s house. The spirit leads me to pray for people prophetically, so I will get images and words and I will share it with them with the intent of blessing them. Wow! I never thought I would be this free but God has so much more in store for you than what you know. 1 Corinthians 2:9 says, “No eye has seen, no hear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” This all started with me giving up my kingdom, and that revelation of how much I need God….There is so much more that I would like to share, but I will share another time if given the opportunity.

I am now 27, I actually quit my job in the middle October of 2017(This revelation was fairly recent), and I’ve grown more in these past few months, than I’ve ever grown in my entire Christian walk. I accept the assignment that God has for me because I know every time I speak of what God has done for me, something inside of me is ignited and there’s and overwhelming feeling that this is what I was born to do. I am not a full time pastor yet, but soon! 😉

To the people that is running this website, as I’m praying for you, I just kept getting the word hope and refreshment. God wants to renew your passion and give you refreshment. I see a giant waterfall coming your way, God says he will give you refreshment because he is everything that you need. Do not be discouraged when the storms are raging in your life. Keep your eyes focused on me God says, and I will let you walk on the impossible. This website is a hope for others, so continue to be faithful in the things that I have given you. Provision is coming your way!